Too young and naive at 13
Sheltered home life
No idea this could happen to me
Innocent or did I cause this?
Church was my life
Only child, very few friends
Wanted to be liked & loved
Wanted to be included
He was the leader
He was a nice man
Or so I thought
No idea what was underneath
Youth outing, fun day
I was safe, right?
I am at church after all
End of the day, need a ride
Everyone is gone but him
He offers, She agrees it’s ok
Still safe, right?
On the ride home things change
He’s talking, conversation, distraction
Then his hand goes there
It stays there back and forth
I am confused, no idea what is going on
I know this is wrong, I try to stop him
Why me? Why him?
Can’t understand
Did I do something wrong?
I tell her what happened
She is upset, but tells no one
He acts like nothing happened
I withdraw deep within
Time goes by, news about other girls
He is gone now
Everyone now knows I was one of them
Embarrassed, still confused
At prayer group one night
She makes a prayer request
For me, because of him
Now more embarrassment & more confusion
I’m grown now and You helped me
Helped me to forgive
Forgive him, her and myself
Helped me to let go of the anger & darkness
Healing starts
From time to time, I remember
Still remember the hurt he caused
The hole in my heart
Even remembering is painful
I was innocent
But he took that away
He stole that from me
I will never get that part of me back
That little girl is gone
But because of you, I am made new
You understood
You did not shame me, like others did
You did not pity me
You just loved me
Helped me to love myself again
Your love
No more confusion
No more embarrassment
No more anger
No more darkness
No more questions
Just my story
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